Undecided btwn 2 girls =/ very long, im sorry. felt i needed to tell it to let u know as much as possible?

well first, im currently a sophomore in high school, and obviously i like 2 girls.. um, well the first girl happens to be my girlfriend (i know, sounds kinda f-ed, but listen to everything first please.)



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her and i will have been going out for 2 yrs in april which i know is long to many people and i can openly admit to her being my first love, and in a way she is technically my first girlfriend. but the thing is, and we both admit it, that it seems that her and i seem to have problems not liking other people. for example, in 8th grade, i asked her out a few days before our spring break. during the break, some students paid to go on a trip to the d.c. area, and the school week after our break, i had to find out by one of my friends telling me that she was holding hands with another guy during the trip. of course i confronted her about it and everything but eventually i tried to just forget about it. then following year we were in high school and to me, soon enough she was talkin to some senior. at first i tried to think to myself that they were just friends and talkin casually, but i couldn hide that fact that he was around 4 yrs older than her. then over a short period of time i pretty much knew that he was tryin to get at her, my girls older sister even thought the guy to be a player, but my girl still said that she didnt think he would try and be like that. then eventually she did realized that he did wanna try and hook up with her but they never did anything.



of course by this point all this was startin to add up.



but my girlfriend plays basket ball for our school, and during our freshman yr (after the senior sh*t), one of her teammates started texting me (not the second girl). the girl happened to be in one of my classes so we talked to each other for a bit and got too close and she called me baby and we said we loved each other (i know, harsh..). my girl was mad at me for gettin that close to her teammate so one day i walked to her house (nothin happened) with two of my friends, without my girl knowin. then while at her house, her younger sister (8th grade now) kept lookin at me. i couldnt tell what she was thinkin tho so it made me a lil nervous but i thought she was kinda cute (yup, second girl.. hah. but i never talked to her til like mid sophomore yr). then after a few weeks my girlfriend and i were cool again since i stopped talkin to the other girl and after a few months she and her teammate were cool too and her teammate and i honestly told her that we didnt know what we were doing then and as sincere as i could be i told her i regretted it and even ended up crying a few times because of it. but then before you know it, during the frosh-sophomore summer, she starts talkn to this kid goin into his frosh yr in temecula. after a while i knew they had something goin cause they would hang out and like literally always text, then sometimes she would give me her phone and go do something else (i know it was bad to check but i had to). i would look thro their texts and find that she was more flirting with him than him to her, but they both contributed more than enough, she even sent him pics of her wearing a bra and those booty shorts. she told me she was sorry, and it seemed like she ment it and i felt as if i deserved it, but she started using the excuse that people would see her in a bikini when she swan anyway but i explained that that was for a different purpose and not just to show someone. then after a bit i think everything slowed down for them but they still talked some. for a while everything was good.









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but then my girls basketball season starts. i'd say maybe around beginning to mid season the second girl (8th grade) and i started talkin more because her and i were always at the home games because my girl would be playing and her older sister is on the team too, and she would pretty much always have to keep the statistics during the jv game. i guess her and i would kinda flirt around the games, but we wouldnt talk any other time unless it was while we were at the games or about if one of us was at our church. then about right after mid season her and i started texting outta church and the games and i felt like her and i got closer and soon enough i started liking her, i couldnt really help it, she is cute, little, funny, can always make me laugh, sometimes i'd even be a lil nervous talkin to her. few of the problems with that tho is that i didnt even know if she liked me, my friend who went to one of the games said that he thinks she does like me, but i dont have a sure way of tellin if she does or if she is just a flirt. also, we dont always talk outta the games and church, maybe just text for a couple hours after school. the second thing is that we're both taken, she has a boyfriend she's been goin out with for only a month, n i have a girlfriend i've been goin out with for nearing two yrs.

however, not loUndecided btwn 2 girls =/ very long, im sorry. felt i needed to tell it to let u know as much as possible?
until the 2nd girl loses her boy toy, stick with your girlfriend.



but if the 2nd girl becomes free, go for it